What do you do?

I remember when Wayne and I were newly married. I loved to go see moma and daddy. I lived just an hour away from them but I went to see them once a week at least. I would call and just say hi. I loved my moma and daddy. I loved to see them and talk with them. Whenever we had a big decision to make about something, we would ask them and Wayne's parents for their input. They would always give us sound advice. Wayne and I have always been close to our parents. They were so part of our lives and we made sure that they were in our boys lives, also. There were times that we experienced things that we thought we could not get through. But our parents were always there for us. They would pray and listen to us. We somehow made it through. When Wayne went through his depression, his parents were there for him. One time we went home to see them. It was just he and I that went. We walked in the house and he sat on the couch. He started to talk about what he had been going through and just started to cry. His mom went right over to him and started to pray and she held on to him and loved him. Parents are the best. I wonder, how you go on everyday and see your children struggle with things that they have experienced in life? How do you reach them to tell them that things will be alright? How do you help them when they are in a deep valley trying to climb their way up that steep mountain? What can you say to help them realize that they do not have to be alone? When your son or daughter is no longer a child but a grown man or woman, how do you let them know that you are still there for them? How can you get them to realize that you love them and want to help them, to hold them? You want to share things with them and be close but sometimes they won't let you near them. What do you do? I have prayed and cried for my boys for a long time. They are great kids. I would not want to change anything about them. They are wonderful men of God. I believe they follow God and listen to His voice. They are leaders of their homes. I am proud of each of them. Even though they are blessed by the Lord the y still struggle. It is so hard sometimes, when I see them go through spiritual fights that I do not know how to help them fight. All I can do is pray for them. I believe our parents did for us. We have got to surround our family with prayer. In Psalms, David said, that "God was a very present help in the time of trouble". I believe that with all of my heart. God is so good. He has proven Himself over and over to Wayne and He has been faithful, everytime. What happens to any of us, does not change who He is. I have been through the loss of both parents and a grandbaby. We will make it. Our sons will make it. Our family will be alright and we will make it. It is hard but we must keep praising. It might be with from our lips for a while, but if we keep praising, it will eventually come from our heart, if we stand faithful. Praise God!

Seasons

The leaves are falling more now than a couple of weeks ago. The trees are so beautiful. Reds, yellows, burnt orange cover them like a breath of fresh air. They stretch high above the earth as if saying, "I am so proud of what I am. God made me and I will ever praise Him". Hearing the sounds of children playing, the rustling of the leaves moving so gingerly as the wind tosses them about, makes you take notice of God's beauty. I close my eyes and listen to the sounds. It is so calming to my soul. Oh, the majesty of it all. God Himself spoke it all into existence and He said it was good. He did it for us. How can we grumble and complain? How can we not know the Creator of all of this? He love us so much. He cared enough about us that He desired to paint us a picture so that we could look upon the beauty that surrounding us. Sometimes we do not see it because of the clutter that is in our lives. "God, forgive us. Forgive us for not seeing your beauty and how you had lovingly placed everything in order for us. We can't see it. You are doing a new thing in our lives and some of us can't see it for the clutter. Help us to put the things that do not even matter, aside and love again". We need to capture the fragrance of the Most High God. Look upon His face and focus on Him. The beauty will come back. You will see it. Seasons do change. It is time to change with it and pick up and go on. We need to stop grumbling and complaining and see God. Just see Him as He is.

My Oldest

My oldest son, Jonathan will be getting married Nov 21st. He is marrying Alejandra. She is sweet and loving. She has such a peace about her. She loves the Lord and it shows through her actions and love for others. Jonathan and Ale (We call her that) are good together. They are very happy. They really take care of each other. It makes my heart feel easier knowing that Jonathan will be taken care of. I pray that they will be happy, blessed and have many years together. I pray that they will be as happy, as Wayne and I have been the past 33 years. Marriage is so wonderful when you are with your soul mate. It makes a difference when you serve God and put Him first in your marriage. Then each other. The children come next. Wayne's mother (Pat) told me one time, that you need to always make time for each other through your marriage. Go on dates and spend time with each other. Be best of friends because one day you will have an empty nest and it will be just the two of you. You have to know that you have a good relationship and love to carry you through to the next phase in your life. We still have Nathanael, our 16 yr old, with us. He is so great. He loves music and is concentrating right now, making a CD, of him playing songs on the keyboard. It won't be long till he will want to move. That will be hard for me because he is the baby. But I will get through. Wayne and I are the best of friends and I guess always have been. We love being with each other. He still makes me laugh. He is so precious to me. How I know that he was the one for me, is because God placed that love in my heart for him a long time ago. He is the best thing that has happened in my life besides the Lord and my children. I am so blessed. Thank you Father for your blessings on me. My cup runs over. I have 3 wonderful sons that I love so much and a precious daughter-in-law and another soon to be daughter-in-law. What more can I ask for? My house is full and filled with love.

Happy Anniversary Dad and Mom

Today was Dad and Mom's anniversary. This year would have been their 60th. After 12 years since dad's passing, mom has gone home to Jesus. She and dad are celebrating it again together. I dreamed about her the other night. She had her red dress on and she was dancing and praising God. She looked so happy and free. She looked at me and just smiled. Her hair was dark again. It flowed around her shoulders. She twirled and just floated it seemed. I sat there captive. She wasn't sick or gasping for air. She was full of life. Thank you God! I think God allows us to dream like that to help us heal. Seeing her like that, made me feel better about her leaving. Oh I know that I will still have my times, but that's alright. I know in my heart it won't be long till we shall meet again. I have that assurance. Wayne in his sweet way said that they just changed their residence. He is right but I still miss them both. Happy Anniversary Dad and Mom. It must be wonderful where you are. Until we meet again. I love you.